Days 38-42 Almost half way through
The past few days were.... well... surprising.
First let me tell you that I found out that I've been counting calories quite incorrectly, which was the reason why I didn't see much results weight-wise. I was eating at my BMR minus 20% off it. Which really put me at the absolute minimum of calories. And with my workouts I'd get with additional minus 200-300 calories beneath that... Eek. Under eating. So after consulting with tons of people on myfitnesspal's boards, I have now upped my calorie intake and the results are in - I had gained 1kg back, and now I've lost it along with another one! So, right now I'm only 10kgs away from my dream weight!
For those who are more interested on the theme you can look into TDEE and the philosophy of 'Eating more to lose more'. The main idea is that if you go for 'BMR' calories you need to eat back the calories you burnt off during workout - or at least some 70-80% of those calories. If you select TDEE (total daily energy expenditure) - you put in all of your activities and whatever TDEE calculator you use gives you back the calories you need with your lifestyle to maintain your weight. And from the TDEE, if you want to lose weight, you subtract up to 20% to find out how many calories you will need with your current life style in order to lose weight.
Truth to be told, it's a bit overwhelming seeing just how many calories I have to take in on a daily basis - nearly 300 more than what I had before, which is a whole other meal. I'm still figuring out how to handle those along with my 'macro targets' (protein, fat, carbs), so I'm now measuring up everything and writing down tons of recipes in myfitnesspal account to get more accurate calorie count. But I think I'm on the right track. Or getting there.
So, to summarize it over the past few days I've been quite active on the boards of MFP (myfitnesspal). I joined a few groups, posted here and there, read a lot. Seriously A LOT. And I'm moving on.
There were a few horrible days (the past 2 actually), my family driving me crazy, feeling really down and hurt and just overly not great. But I kept on working out, I kept on reading on the matter, I kept on focusing, or trying to, on myself. Being me it's actually really hard to ignore everything and everyone and just think about myself in the first place, but I think I'm learning when and how to be "selfish".
Oh. I also bought a blender!! ^___^ Super happy about it! Healthy smoothies <3 I decided that those will be my additional calories and with the milk I'd be putting into them I'd be getting there on the 'protein' levels I need. :3 Yummy stuff.
Also found a great source for free workout videos - there are long ones, strength ones, yoga, short, HIITs, everything really. Recommending FitnessBlender
to anyone who wants to do something but has no time/money for gym membership and/or DVDs.
So, yeah... The past few days had their ups and downs, but I'm moving on.
There is no stopping me.