Day 30 - The things that have changed in the first 1/3rd
Wow. I can't believe that I'm already 1/3rd through the Body Revolution program. I've never believed that I'd stick to working out 6 days a week, pushing through stress, tiredness, discomfort and general laziness. I'm extremely surprised of myself. And even more proud of myself and what I'm accomplishing - rebuilding my entire lifestyle and way of thinking. It's actually quite amazing how once you've manage to win over that little voice in the back of your head that keeps on whispering 'Eh, skip today. Get a pizza, drink a coke, get a beer', it gets easier and easier to just push it away and ignore it and stick to what you are doing.
And now that I think about it a lot of things have changed during those 30 days. I don't know whether it is due to the fact that I'm eating better, healthier foods, and have got rid of all the junk food, or whether it's the fact that I'm working out so much, but I do feel like my way of thinking has changed. Or at least the way I feel. Don't get me wrong, I'm still incredibly insecure and I still have a crazy social anxiety most of the time, but I don't think I dislike myself anymore. You know... before I'd go in a store, like something, try it on and if it didn't fit or it fit but didn't look well on me, I'd end up devastated - full breakdown guaranteed, while now I go in and out and my attitude 'Not now but soon! Grr!*smirk*'. Before whenever I was stressed or upset I'd go for a few-thousand-calorie snack, now... I don't. It's really interesting observing my thought process when I'd get upset or just get a bit down. I'd think about 'Ohhh... I'll go grab that cookies or the chips or the chocolate or all', but then I'd open myfitnesspal account, look at my calorie balance so far, see how well I'm doing and I'd think about just how much effort those thousands of calories would get out of me in order to burn them. And by the time I've had those two thoughts run through my mind, I'm already shrugging off on the idea and just moving onto calming down in other ways.
It's... completely different from how I used to be. And those who have known me for a while, will confirm that.
Other than that I've been able to go to bed with no medications 95% of the time. And as an ex insomniac and a person who would need a handful of sleeping herbal pills to calm down enough to doze off... well... this is major. This is actually the second most important thing that has happened to me during that one month other than not allowing myself to stress-eat.
And cutting pretty much completely all sodas has made my stomach so much calmer. And having had not trans fats in the past month has helped my skin clear up some.
Well... in other words other than the minuses in my measurements there have been only pluses in everything else. It's... quite energizing thinking about all of that. It makes me look forward to the rest of this program and actually to the rest of my life. I can definitely see working out and eating healthy staying a part of my life for life. :)