Lillith McAllister
Human Bio
Name
Lillith "Lily" Felicity McAllister
Player
Bloodied Porcelain
Age
18
Claimed By
Reserved
Orientation
Bisexual
Hair
Long, auburn, curly
Eyes
Blue
Height
5'0"
Appearance
Standing at only 5', Lilith is a petite young woman with willowy limbs and a sweet, doll-like face. Big blue eyes look out at the world from a fringe of long black lashes and her porcelain skin is free of blemish. Her build is on the slender side, with just enough curves in the right places to call attention to her without being overstated, hinting that they may be able to fill out more with proper care and diet. More often than not, Lilith dresses in what makes her comfortable at the time... ranging from cut off shorts and tanktops to mini skirts and dresses. Heels are a common part of her wardrobe, though even with them on, she finds herself often shorter than those around her.
Face Claim
Fahria Yasmin
Personality
Lily is a quiet, withdrawn young woman who watches the world with a mixture of apprehension and hope, as if she wants things to be better, but expects them to go dramatically wrong... and this is a reflection of how she truly feels about things. Lily has never had a single person in her life who didn't eventually abandon her in some way, shape, or form. She grew up with her grandmother taking the place of her mother and while the older woman was loving and supportive, it wasn't the same, especially spending so many years walking through halls decorated with pictures of a woman who had her eyes, her smile, but was never present. Her missing mother was like a ghost in their halls, and Lily came to believe that her mother left because of her. The self-doubt and self-blame only increased when her brother left, and by the time she lost both of her grandparents, her views on people and life were distinctly jaded. This has lead to Lily having self-destructive tendencies. She is not only prone to self-punishment (though she hardly sees it that way) through the abuse of alcohol and prescription drugs, but she also tends to destroy her own relationships before the people she's in them with can get close enough to cause her pain. In her mind, they're leaving anyway, so why become invested in them?
Under her damage, Lily is an artistic soul with a gift for singing and dancing and a penchant for sketching, though the last isn't something she ever pursued seriously. She tends to put others before her when she does get close to them, and her fear of abandonment shows when these people are in her life, as she goes out of her way to try to keep them happy so they won't leave. She has a soft side to her, though she's not likely to let it show, often keeping it to herself that someone has hurt her, refusing to cry and even rebelling against the smallest of things.
Ons & Offs
Mine
History
Born the second of two children to a strung out, drug-addicted single mother, Lilith never really knew her mother. She grew up seeing pictures of her mother during her earlier years. Her happier years. Her years before the drink and the drugs and the sex left her a broken shell of a woman who barely remembered she had children, let alone knew their names. But in spite of all the pictures, Lily never knew her mother. She was rarely a topic of conversation and when she did get brought up, things were at best tense... leaving the young, impressionable Lily to avoid the topic all together in future years.
Days after Lily was born, when she was still barely clinging to life, hooked up to ventilators and constantly supervised by a full medical team, Rebecca McAllister disappeared. Her family never figured out what happened to her, and in spite of the hardships presented to the elderly couple being left with two young children to look after, the children were more than likely better off in their care. She spent most of her early years struggling against illnesses, the circumstances of her birth leaving her with a weakened immune system. It was only through the careful supervision of her grandparents and their insistence on a balanced and healthy diet and constant physical activity that she managed to overcome the worst of her trouble before she became a teenager. Though she still finds herself prone to becoming seriously ill when exposed to sicknesses that might not affect others as badly, she is by no means a sickly person
Her early years were tough, but likely easier than they could have been had it been someone else who had taken custody of her. Her brother was rebellious from the beginning, and by the time he was fifteen and Lily was ten, he had pushed their grandparents until they felt they had no options but to send the boy away to a strict private "military" school to sort him out. He ran away before they ever got the chance, and though a man hunt was initiated, no one ever managed to find Victor McAllister. Suddenly thrown in to the life of an only child, Lily felt as if she had the world on her shoulders. Her grandparents were getting too old to handle the pressures of dealing with children, and though Lily did all she could to behave, she was a child and there was always some problem for them to face.
Feeling abandoned by mother and brother, Lily withdrew in on herself and though she kept up (at the assistance of her grandparents) with her dance and voice lessons, she was loathe to become involved with people in more than a passing manner. When she did open up to people, she often clung to them emotionally, terrified they would one day leave her as others had. It proved to be a lonely existence for a developing young woman, and when a house fire took the lives of both her grandparents, Lily was left with no one to take care of her. At the tender age of sixteen, she entered the foster system, where she spent the next two years struggling to survive through encounters with cruel peers, a lack of a steady or balanced diet, and largely being left to herself.
She continued to dance, enrolling in free classes at the community center when they were offered, though her foster parents refused to pay for her to continue her normal lessons. Outside of the dance studio, though, Lily began to self-destruct. She started drinking. She gave up on taking care of her health and grew ill on more than one occasion. She barely graduated school with C and D grades and while she could have tried to pursue community college on grants and scholarships for disadvantaged youths, she decided against it and instead struck out on her own.
