Right so im 19 years old, I got good grades in school and have a btech from college, im moving to another course but the summer holidays are killing me. I've applied for more jobs then I can count and got F*** all from any of them. They dont reply and most are looking for expirienced workers or Senior staff.
This is really pissing me off, I don't need the money so much as a reason to get up in the moring, im bored which is making me depressed, I am on the verge of teares almost every day and it's effecting everything else. Im trying to study music for my next course and i can't focus on it. Im lashing out at my little brother and my mum and I hate doing that, it doesnt help that mum is not working either because of a bad knee, so I do most of the house work and cook every day but not enough to apply for a carer's grant.
My brother antagonises me every chance he gets, when I tell him I don't want to talk he starts mouthing off thinking he is better then me. I ignore him but it still pisses me off to no end. What am I supposed to do? I can't even leave the house because I have nowhere to go. I have two friends who I sometimes visit but one I can't get to because I need transport and can't afford it and I don't drive and the other is going through things herself and doesn't really want me around.
If anyone has any advice I would appriciate it, baring in mind I have tried careers advisors, i wont do charity work despite me saying I don't care about money, I wont work for free either.