[M4F] The failed open relationship. [cuckold scene]

[Johnny Silverstone]

It was the biggest mistake I ever made.

My wife and I have been together for years, and we've always been very much in love. She was the only woman I'd ever been with. Most people who knew that I went on to marry my very first girlfriend thought it was sweet or romantic, but truthfully, it left me wondering about different experiences. About other women.

I got greedy. Opening up our relationship had been something I had been thinking about for a long time. After all, what guy doesn't want the opportunity to sleep around with multiple women?

It was over a year after I started thinking about it, fantasizing about it, before I worked up the courage to broach the subject with her. And the fight that ensued was intense. She felt betrayed, as if she wasn't good enough. But through lots of tears, I managed to convince her that it would be good for our relationship. That it would bring us closer together. And to my complete surprise, she finally agreed. I couldn't believe it. I was going to be able to have my cake and eat it, too.

One month into our arrangement, however, and I'm thinking differently about our arrangement. My experience on Tinder and Bumble and every other app I've downloaded has been more or less the same: days go by without any matches. The closest I've gotten to seeing another woman is a handful of underwhelming back-and-forths over text before the conversation fizzles out.

On top of that, something else that I hadn't quite anticipated is happening. I was so preoccupied with fantasies of date after date with other women that I hadn't considered what my wife would be doing in the meantime. And her side of our open relationship looks very different from mine. She goes out on dates almost every single night. It's agonizing, watching her get ready for her nights out. Seeing her glued to her phone, obviously texting other men. Seeing her come home at 7 or 8 in the morning, wearing the same sexy dress she left wearing the night before.

What happens when it gets to be too much for me? What happens when I try to back out of the arrangement that I pushed for, the hell that I created for myself?

(If you're the kind of girl who loves the thought of messy relationships, psychological play, and testing the boundaries of a marriage, send me a PM or chat request! I'd love to talk to you. This can be a long-term or short-term scene, or alternatively, I'm happy to just chat with you about the ideas involved in a scene like this. The relationship involved can also be between a boyfriend and girlfriend, or a couple who is engaged but not yet married. As for the play style, I'm fine using either first person or third person--just let me know your preference.

Please note that I'm interested in playing the man in this relationship, and not the guys that she's going out with!)