Thank you so very much, Sybl. I appreciate the thought. I'm not suicidal, not by any stretch of the imagination. Just....numb. I really don't get excited or happy or joyful or grateful - or sad or angry or frustrated - over much these days. Just many days of "blah". I just wonder if this is my normal now. Trying to reach for joy or happiness seems futile, since I always end up back in this numbness. So I wonder if just living in the blah is okay. I mean, why bother reaching for anything else?
I so appreciate the warm welcome and offer of support. I was, pardon the expression, "thrilled" to see this topic featured on E. And then to find so many others so willing and open to speaking about it. It is a blessing.
Btw, I read your blog too. I am fascinated. Love the pics of fractals....still wonder exactly what they are. How do you create them?
you are welcome ABelle,
thank you for asking about Fractals:
Fractals are irregular or odd images created either randomly or intentionally through various methods. Some of those, created intentionally are called flame packs, a file created by another Fractal program or intentional artistry. These are programmed digitally through various ways added to zip files, downloaded by who ever wants them (like me
I have an apophysis (2 now) the old style which is still fun, and the new 7x, which is more fun.
Depending on my mood at the time, I use 3 methods or more created the colors I want to use, the manipulation tool etc. Occasionally, I will work for hours on one item, sometimes 2 minutes. I save them to my Render file after they "render" which can takes seconds to a day, or longer if you have a fancy computer that can handle the time it takes, memory wise.
If you or anyone is interested in learning, I have all the files you need or links to them.
I am happy that several here at E have taken me up on my offer.
*hugs* for all who need them,