Tell me this: Should an ex boyfriend want sex from you when he told you he did not? I hang out with Mr. Small still quite often and I still have to stay he is still ready and not-so willing when it comes to it. I laugh when he comes over with a randy and expect me to keep quiet about it half the time. One day this week, I messed with his issue and withing two minutes of touching, through his pants, he blew his load. I laughed when he left immediately. I knew I still had that power over him. He still swears though that we are just friends. I just do not think he understands what he is doing half the time. Its hillarious.
Mr. Gay is still a mystery to me. I cannot tell if he is truly not gay or is hiding it. I just don't care. He does not seem like a good friend, he is kind of flakey in fact. I just need to chill off men but the craving, the want becomes more and more strong. I just need the affection shown to me instead of just assumed.
My life is just not going to well at the moment and cannot stress over something so small as the wants of a man, but I do. My days are filled with nothing but thoughts and cleaning, nothing more.