This is a question I've asked myself for years now. When are you to old for children? I'm 31 years old now and I've had a problem for the last 10 years of not being able to get pregnant again. When I was 21 Johnathan impregnated me but I couldn't carry it, I was too small the doctor's said. I lost the child at 4 months into the pregnancy. With this came complications. As if I didn't need anymore of them in my life.
The complications became worse and worse. I wouldn't have my period for months on end and then I would have it for months on end. I'd end up in the hospital embarrassed with a bleeding problem. I'd be sluggish and couldn't hold a job because I slept so much. I was on iron pills, I was on this pill, that pill, THE pill.
I was placed on birth control to regulate the problem, it worked, for a time. My prescription insurance ran out and that was the end of that help. I couldn't afford to pay 50 dollars a month for the medicine. So I had to stop taking the pills. The problem was fixed for the time and I was regular again. I picked up the idea of trying for children again then. Nothing, nothing at all, I was frustrated.
So now I had new questions and concerns, what does a person who doesn't have the money like Angelina Jolie for fertility drugs and appointments? There is nothing really. My doctor tells me if I can't afford to go to a fertility doctor then I wouldn't be able to afford to take care of a child. I'm also told I'm too small to carry a child and the same thing that happened when I was 21 would happen again.
But, here comes the fun part of this twisted tale. I'm diabetic, it happened when I was losing so much blood that I became anemic. The iron pills I was taking was telling my pancreas not to work. Thus I'm type 2 diabetic now. Fix one problem and bring forth another. Not to mention it's hereditary in my family. My father is type 2. My sister claims she got my father's height, well I claim I got his diabetes.
Being too small to carry a child? How am I to fix this. I was told to gain weight, but yet I can't have the carbohydrates needed to gain said weight. I get fussed at by my doctor because of the diabetes. I could eat more calories, but then my cholesterol goes up. It's all really frustrating to figure out how I can have a family and still keep the problem I have in check.
At the same time I found out I was diabetic, the old problem came up with the menstrual cycle being out of whack. I had to get married in order to have medical insurance to cover everything. Now everything is hunky dory around here, per say, and I wanted to try again with having children, but am I to old? Will I be told again I can't? With a wife perpetually not being able to be off of birth control what are Johnathan's feelings? Has he given up the idea of ever having a family? Should I just quit trying and come to terms that I'll never be a mother? Did I miss my window of opportunity already? Has my clock run out of time?