It is often said that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, albeit deceptive or intimidating. This is true in a literal sense for Seren Barrington, choosing to incorporate elements of gothic, punk and the occult into her appearance. The most prominent and immediately noticeable is her use of cosmetics to accentuate certain facial features, particularly the eyes which are pale-blue and what she considers the most beautiful aspect. Her desire to bring more attention to them also causes her to keep her eyebrows keenly plucked and well maintained. The rest of her face possesses soft features from her rounded chin and delicately shaped lips which are often lacquered in flesh-tones. Seren holds a moderate dislike of her cheeks however, thinking they are too chubby and ‘chipmunk like’. This compels her to repress fully smiling in most situations, especially out in public.
Seren is comfortable enough with herself to flaunt skin and accessorize her body with risque, dark clothing. She takes greater value in the ability to freely express through fashion choices, although she seems interested in comfort over style. This leaves her preferences of clothing to be relatively simplistic. Her first and foremost prerequisite when purchasing a clothing piece is if she can run in it. Her favorite article of clothing is the tan pair of cowboy boots she’s had for several years, having sentimental value invested in them. She often sports her modest selection of body-piercing, found in a single lip ring and an eyebrow bar. The only time these seem to be absent are during sleep or bathing.
Underneath the fashion statements, Seren bears a below-average physique with years of undernourishment stunting growth. As a result, she is petite and frail, although she seems to be taking active steps to correct this. She bears a modest breast size, proportionate to her frame with a matching hips-to-thigh measurement ratio. However, calling her curvy would be an overstatement. Seren falls into the Ectomorph body type, giving her the typical traits associated to the classification. She has small shoulders, small and seemingly delicate joints where bone easily protrudes underneath the skin. Her complexion falls into the fair and pale category, smooth and with little tone except in her legs; the girl can run. Lastly, the evidence of self-harm is on blatant display across her forearms. One can easily see a multitude of tiny, horizontal scars with a single vertical one running along the vein underneath. Under normal circumstances, these scars are covered with arm-warmers, gloves or long-sleeve shirts. However, she is often proud enough to leave them visible when in extremely positive moods.Skills:
Social Engineering, Psychoanalysis, DivinationPersonality
Seren has a difficult disposition to identify as a whole, riddled with subtle inconsistencies due to her separation of private and public life. Although, if one were to give her any singular description, it would be free-spirited with an emphasis on freedom, individuality and exploration.
To her, the world is an interconnected mystery ready to be explored and filled with information. There is always a deeper meaning and something to find between lines. This outlook drives forward her sense of adventure and mysticism, eager to explore and test the boundaries of her accumulative knowledge. There is nothing to Seren more exciting than a potential and will actively leap towards it so long as is remains spontaneous and advantageous. If anything has the ability to ruin Seren’s motivation towards discovery, it is through the use of routine. Repetitive action and the feeling of obligation quickly deteriorate her focus towards task completion. Additionally, she seldom manages to get caught up questioning why or how something happened. When either of these two circumstances become an element, Seren often becomes stressed and overwhelmed - nearly compulsive to discover the answer to a question or method to escape cycling continuity.
Over the years as a result, she has become an intuitive thinker with a keen grasp of empathy. Her steady consistency of observations through activity or social interaction born from curiosity leaves Seren with a desirable ability to communicate. In social settings, she can easily become the center of attention given her charismatic benevolence and interest towards forming connections with others. To her, everyone is a new world of discovery to reflect upon. Analytical perception of life accounts, hardships, how they overcame them and more all factor into Seren’s motivation to be an extraverted individual. However, this promotes a sensitive vulnerability. One of her nasty habits is focusing on introverted individuals and wanting to crack open the shell to find possible potentials. Compulsion to offer advice, actively placing herself in a position to get more involved and even take matters into her own hands often leads to conflict. The first is placing an unrealistic expectation on others, holding them up to a standard of flowing creativity and shared experiences. Secondly, she can forget to care for herself and this hefty generosity often leaves a relation with a one-sided impression.
Above all else, Seren holds an intense abhorrence towards physical violence or the deployment of coercion to take advantage of others. This stems from the years of childhood abuse and reflecting upon the effects it still holds over her. It implemented a deep-seated fear of others which can twist her explorative curiosity and knowledge into a malicious weapon. By understanding how the victim of her ire works and looks at the world, Seren holds an edge to stay a step ahead. It is half a self-defense mechanism and half a coping mechanism to moments of heightened anxiety and feeling threatened. Under most circumstances, the maliciousness demonstrated in these moments are moderate and simply impulsive with an underlying intent to reconcile or seek compromise. Failing this, she will most always choose the option of fleeing and attempting to hide. Another coping mechanism she developed over the years was self-inflicting cuts along her forearms, treating it as a painkiller placebo. This is normally done when she either has nothing to use as an edge or desperately needs to escape her anxiety.
The source of abuse originated from Seren’s developed ability to communicate with the dead, revealing it to her father who still struggled with moving past the death of his wife. Since an extremely early age, she has been watched and spoken to by ghostly apparitions of various personality. They were there while she showered, explored sexual experimentation and more which left Seren with a relaxed perspective on humility as a result. Additionally, it is through their constant presence and vying for attention that she developed her communicative skills. Originally, it was only their company that she preferred, finding the judgmental alternative making her ability a source of ridicule and torture. However, through the discovery of Laveyan Satanism and magic, she discovered that reality was not as black and white as perceived. Through them, Seren found her motivation to flip the perspective of the world upside down and explore the ley-lines of psychology, occultism and sociology.Backstory
Seren was born on June 30th in Meridian, Mississippi into a working class family with substance abuse history predating her conception. Her early childhood was as normal as one would expect with virtually nothing outside of the ordinary. However, at the age of five, Seren's mother lost her life in a car crash which sent her father into a down spiral of alcohol-induced depression. The following weeks gradually created a distance between father and daughter until Seren's 'gift' of communicating with the dead manifested. This ability was left unnoticed by her father's drunken stupor all the way up into her first year of school. Seren's father received a call from the school's principle, detailing her defiant behavior and that they'd like to meet her mother. When explained that the mother had been dead for over a year, the principal explained that Seren is convinced her mother tells her to say the things she's been saying. Seren was sent home to face the wrathful scorn of her father, subjected to yelling and scolding remarks. Eventually, Seren stood up and told him that her mother wants to speak with him and he paused, bewildered. When Seren spoke again, it was with her mother's voice and soft-spoken dialect. Whatever it was, something triggered in him and he slapped her across the room. As she cried and held her face on the floor, she heard him say to never play such a sick trick again and he walked off to drown in more alcohol.
This marked the start of a long childhood of physical and verbal abuse. As she continued communicating with the recently deceased, the father often found her 'talking to herself' or received concerning calls from teachers about the tendency to do so. At each instance, Seren was subjected to another beating and harsh verbal scolding. Words and phrases often used were freak child or other such equivalents. As time passed, social life was significantly stunted, often being a silent body off to the side who listened to others or refused to participate in normal, leisurely activities. She began to prefer the company of spirits, finding their unjudging disposition much more appealing. As she grew older, the beginning stages of school-bullying made her a prime victim, often teased and pushed around for being the strange girl with imaginary friends. She would often try to run and hide, screaming at the top of her lungs when violence was deployed. Eventually, Seren had shut down so completely that she often skipped school and locked herself away at home. To her surprise, this apathy of having a future resulted in no action from the father. Feeling entirely isolated from the world and finding company exclusive to the dead, she eventually tried to run away from home multiple occasions. Each time, she was found in a local graveyard talking to herself and after the second offense, she was submitted to psychiatric therapy. She was quickly released however, when the psychologist found nothing 'wrong' and Seren was returned to her father only to face another case of abuse. Finally, she got brave enough to call the cops to report his abuse. Midway through the call, the dispatcher heard a door slam open and her screams. By the time the police arrived, they found Seren in the fetal position, unconscious and still being beaten by her father with a blunt object with an insane expression. Seren was hospitalized to mend a severe concussion, effects of malnourishment, multiple bone fractures and more.
After many months of recovery and physical therapy, Seren was released from the hospital. As a minor with the closest relatives located in New Orleans, her course was set. Over the years, Seren created a complex on top of her chosen coping mechanisms to the abusive past while keeping most of her company in the form of ghosts. Nevertheless, her years of crafting led her on an insatiable quest for knowledge. It wasn't until she got mixed in with a certain crowd in school that she was welcomed to Satanism, learning of it's self-indulgent teachings without the expense of bullying. Currently, she's a college student majoring in psychology and about to discover that things are a bit more bizarre in the world than what she thought she knew...Character Ons/OffsRole:
Switch • Activity:
Vanilla Sex, Lights On, Safe SexGeneral Attractions:
Intelligence, Mysterious, Nonviolent, Pragmatic, Self-Indulgent, Glasses, CompassionateKinks:
Roleplay, Skinny-Dipping, Voyeurism