November 26th, 2016
Wow ok, it's been a long time. As such there is quite a bit of work I need to do. To be honest, things have changed so much since over a year ago. September of 2015 I started my first year as a college student. I am focusing on an Associates of General Studies, and I am focusing on Languages as my field of work. That Job Market isn't too over saturated, but and the entry level for the job is actually really good.
But that's besides the point, you are all probably wondering why Sweet has been pretty out of it. Why I stopped doing updates, to put it simply - life really got to me.
College proved to be more time consuming than I thought, furthermore - learning Japanese was a lot harder than I thought it would be. But I have gotten through my first year of college, and I'm a third of my way through my second year of college. I have a bit of a road ahead of me, but I'm looking forward to it. It's just the way of things, one could say.
Alright, so it's time to dip into a bit more than I previously mentioned.
A lot of people remember that I was dealing with depression, mostly because of my living situation. We are still living with the In-Laws, but things have gotten bad in a different regard. Just after my birthday, we found out my father in law is now an insulin dependent diabetic. He already had problems with following a diet, and things got pretty bad there for a bit. It was a bit annoying for awhile there, with the constant fighting over diet changes and portion control. There was a lot of appointments, and the house was in a constant upheaval for awhile. Finally, it seemed like things would level out.
Then, I overheard my mother in law talking about how the house was going to go into foreclosure. She had lied to me again, about the situation the house was in, and it put me through a loop. I was just starting my second year of school, and this came up. I was in shock, I was angry, and I was not going to let her get away with it this time. We, as the family, had a discussion and we are currently in the process of working on Foreclosure avoidance procedures. She is working on getting a re-adjustment on the mortgage, and we are just trying to get by.
Me and my husband, some friends, and my daughter, all went to a convention just before Halloween weekend. The one in Portland, not the one in Sea-Tac... couldn't pay me enough to go to /that/ con. Kumo is my home, and I wouldn't give it up for the world.
Day Zero of con was a bit rough, I had to get everything organized and packed - get everyone to the hotel. Got two hotel rooms checked in, and got everyone settled. Helped everyone get to their rooms, had a shower and left con to go to my Math class. Came back late at night, and tried to relax and enjoy a few drinks before the big convention weekend. I thought it was going to be a real relaxing situation, I was really really wrong. Just a little into Friday morning (we are talking just after midnight really) I got a call from my mother in law... Father in law had a seizure. He had never had seizures in his life, but he had a seizure. She asked me to get hubby to the hospital so he could be there. I blanked, I freaked, I went on survival mode. As much as I dislike his parents, I love my husband. I love him a lot, and his happiness is important to me.
Cue me trying to get into our hotel room, and having to pound on the door at almost 1am. Good news was, people were still in the halls hanging out and generally goofing around, the entire floor was congoers so they understood the Day Zero festivities... I stumble through asking the Gnome (our friend from Wisconsin) if he's had too much to drive, and he hadn't... though he had one bitch beer(Mike's Hard, that sorta thing) ... I turn to hubby and tell him and the two of them leave. I'm left in this swirling vortex of what the fuck just happened.
Con weekend happens, and things are a bit sad. I have someone that I have sort of been seeing for almost a year, a wonderful friend that I was getting closer to. He promised that weekend we would spend time together, by Saturday night I had seen him for a grand total of half and hour - when he came into my hotel room and took my daughter - who was fighting her nap - and brought her into the room next to ours to calm her down and make her nap. It worked, but that was the longest span of time I had seen him to that point.
I felt detached from the con as a whole, and was trying to find a reason to continue going. So I go out to the con space at my husbands insistence, and try to find some fun things to do. It's late on saturday night, so there isn't any kids to really worry about. Things seem to be going generally good, and I'm having fun. I head back to my hotel room at about 1am, and then settle down to rest and do some homework. Then I get a phonecall at about 3am on Sunday, October 30th, and my world spins down again. It's mother in law, she says father in law had another seizure. That's two within about 48 hours, both considered serious enough to go to the hospital. She tells me not to tell hubby till the morning, and I stay awake till almost 5am... waiting for her to call back and say her and dad are heading home.
We get back, and everything spins out of control. Things are so stressful I have to drop a class. I dont' notice the signs of my own declining health, and keep pushing myself with my Second Year Japanese - and with my Pre-Calculus since I had to drop my Asian Religion class. I'm going for an Asian Studies Certification addition to my degree, since my overall focus is going to be languages and cultural advocacy...
Well things keep going, and keep getting worse. Tons of things started piling up. I didn't notice the signs that I had health problems, and so I just thought the stress was making me crack.
This last week we found out that my father in law had a pearl sized (we are talking pearl necklace pearl) mass in his left frontal lobe... It seemed that was the last straw... and I started to crack. I started to have symptoms of a developing uterine cyst... and I missed class on monday and tuesday. Wednesday I tried to be in class, but it did very little good. I ended up realizing that I had been through a ridiculous amount of feminine products since I woke up, and then the worry really set in. I went to the hospital straight from class, turns out I have abnormal uterine bleeding with lowered blood counts and iron levels. Not enough for transfusion or injections. I am ordered to take it easy.
That's not happening. I was up till 1am on thursday cleaning the dining room, and even scrubbing the floor a bit. Thursday when I wake up I am roped into cleaning the house from 7am till about 1pm... I'm exhausted, I'm tired, I'm bleeding heavily. Things are seeming to be ok now, but I have to worry about stuff with my Japanese class.
While I was drugged up for pain, which is all the hospital could do for me on Monday (my first visit to discover I had a cyst forming) - I ended up completing a Japanese Composition... with a lot of help from Google. Teacher sent me an email saying she wanted to speak with me. Now I have to wait to make a doctor's appointment for the abnormal uterine bleeding, and figure out how I'm goign to save myself in this class. I am starting to realize that the chances of that happening are really really slim. So now my schooling is at risk in a way.
I am not sure how I'm going to keep surviving. But I've found a return in my mind, to the wish of roleplaying. It's one of the few joys I have anymore...