I pick the number 3.
*sighs lightly while looking the three cards over.*...
You have receaved...the Page of Pentacles...and within this situation he is telling you it is best to study and go on with knowlege for it is better t be careful and cautions, and have the back round knowlegde to make decisions...from what you have said I see you have leared..you have suffered and there for are forced to learn your lesson or become hurt again and again....
So he is telling you to calm yourself....and watch. Be aware of everything.
Next would be the two of wands....yet it is reversed.
The two of wands alone represent change, patience and focus of your intent..yet since it is upside down it represents you going back to square one.
You are useing your knowlegde and yet negatively. Your takeing steps back and becomeing unmotavated in finding a true mate.
The two of wands reversed suggests that no movements are being made towards the goal you seek. A lack od follow-through or harmony might be takeing place, but in any event, your venture will have many delays and frustrations.
A suggestion with this card is to ether start over entirely, stop and regroup, or change the way your going about finding your partner comepletely.
The last card is that of 3 of pentacles...and again it is reversed.
When this card is reversed it can mean you can't do a good job at what you wish because you don't have the proper tools...it can also mean that what your trying to go about is not trully safe....
*sighs* I know it is confusing and I am sorry. I shall try to clear it up.
I think this means you should stop searching. It goes with the terms of "trying to hard" you must stop and go back to regroup yourself. Get composed. How do you expect to find that of what you trully need if your throwing up defenses. Defences created by those of falsehood because you were hurt in the past.
You have to take time for you and you alone....before I can tell you if your mate shall come...