Painful being (Faythe and silverroses2009)

[Sacrah]

Marie touched her daughters hand, tears falling from her eyes in a silent despair. Just the touch, made Emilee flinched, her eyes tightening and a small whimper, eyes tightening, as though she where having a bad a dream. Her hand moved,twitched as though it searched for something

[darkvamplips]

She's going to be alright isn't she? He kept asking himself but he did not know the answer to that or any other questions. Slowly he put his hand in hers wondering if that's the reason why her hand was moving.

[Sacrah]

At the feel of her twins touch, she settled almost instantly. Her breathing now even. her facial expression serene.

Marie put her hand on her sons shoulder and hugged him. she new how hard this must have been for him. "Seems your the only strong one."she cried, against his shoulder

[darkvamplips]

That was strange why would she just calm down like that when he held her hand. Why was he getting close to her if she had a chance to die. "I guess your right." He said putting his other hand on her arm.

[Sacrah]

"Maybe we should have you checked out. both girls sick. i don't understand why."Marie wailed. Emilee's hand seemed to instantly tightening on his hand, as  if telling him 'thank you, im alright, tell mom not to cry'

[darkvamplips]

"Do you think they have the same disease that killed her?" He looked up at their mother and sighed. Was she in a coma or was she just sleeping?

[Sacrah]

Marie shook her head. " your little sister."She paused looking to Emilee. "your littlest sister, had just really bad asthma. her heart other then that was fine. our Emilee, had deteriorating heart valves. "she pondered looking down to the sleeping Girl. "Emilee had problems when she was a had a bad heart at birth. I gave her up hoping that a good family would be able to afford her surgeries. but i see I've made a grave mistake. She bounced around through homes"she sighed looking down how Emilee gripped tightly to joshes hand. "she may never have grown up with you. but the two of you are connected. besides the fact you have no  health problems."she added

[darkvamplips]

"Why didn't you try to keep her mom?" He hoped that she would not be hearing any of what they were saying. Why did he keep him and not her? Somehow he new this was going to be different but he could not help but think she could die to. The pain was back again but he could not leave his sister now.

[Sacrah]

Marie sighed looking at her son. "I was young and scared. I didn't know how to help a child with a heart problem. I didn't want to do anything wrong, and have her die in my arms for something so foolish on my part."Tears swelled in her eyes as she stared down to her son.

[darkvamplips]

Yet you already had a daughter die. He said in his mind hoping his twin sister did not hear it. He couldn't bare to see his mother cry so he turned his head and looked towards his sister again. Knowing that he had a twin he hated his mom for not telling him.

[Sacrah]

"im sorry son. your baby sister came later as you now."she stammered through her tears. She didn't know what to say to make him believe that she spoke the truth that she was sorry for what she had done

Emilee whimpered and shifted uneasily in her sleep/ clinging onto his hand

[darkvamplips]

This was going to take some time to believe and forgive his mother he did not say anything else after that. It was too painful. He had not even gone to his sister's grave since they buried her.

[Sacrah]

Her hand held onto his. her grip tightening as she squeeze. she whimper again her eyes tightly shut. she tossed her head from side to side, With  small whimper she opened her eyes staring up at josh. then to her mother she wondered what they had talked about while she was asleep to make them both up set.

Marie smile down at her daughter, even that smile Emilee knew she was upset. "Whats wrong, is something going to happen to me."she said quickly trying to keep her heart calm

[darkvamplips]

He knew she had to try and stay calm and nothing was going to happen to her. "Em it's ok. Just try and stay calm nothing is wrong ok?" He gently rubbed her arm trying to calm her down.

[Sacrah]

Emilee was still wide eyed as she fought to calm her heart. Wincing softly, and accompanied by a small whimper, from still being fresh from surgery. Her eyes went to her mother, then to her twin. "are you guys sure."she whispered calming down now

[darkvamplips]

"It's ok don't worry." He said knowing there was nothing and stress would make her worse. He laid a hand upon her cheek to try and calm her down.

[Sacrah]

"Then why do i feel like there is something wrong."She asked calmly. she knew something was up but just the look  on their faces.

"Mom?"Emilee asked, looking up to Marie.

"I have to get a coffee."Marie stammered wanting to cry and not sure what to tell her daughter. She quickly headed to the cafeteria

[darkvamplips]

"Look it's fine ok. Don't stress yourself out you'll get sick. You need to rest you just had a surgery." Gently he rubbed her arm trying to get her to calm down while holding her other hand.

[Sacrah]

"Josh im fine. i am calm i was just curious to why mom and you are so upset over."she whispered softly, looking to watch his hand run along her skin. It was comforting.

[darkvamplips]

"Just found out why she let you go is all." He could not bring himself to make her stressed out in case something happened to her. She could end up dead for all he knew.

[Sacrah]

"Oh"was all she could think of at that exact minute her eyes saddening she was sure she knew why. When she can think straight. "May i ask why?"

[darkvamplips]

Slowly she told her about why his mom gave her up. He hoped that she would not cry because of it.

[Sacrah]

Emilee looked at her brother as she listened to his explanation. A tear fell and she turned her head from him. She understood sort of but it still hurt to know her owner mother didn't or well want to try to raise her. She drew in a shaky breathe then winced in pain, then coughed."I see" she said eyes going closed she didnt want to cry

[darkvamplips]

"It's alright." He said placing a hand upon her arm not wanting her to cry over this. At least she was back in their family and he was starting to open up and be a brother to her now.

(Can she have another asthma attack and be on a ventilator?)

[Sacrah]

Emilee gasped suddenly the machine started to race as an attack kicked in. Her eyes widened at the suddenness of it and looked up at her brother."I can't breathe" she cried out in small gasping sounds, her skin paling more. she squeeze his hand tightly obviously scared of what was happening