A Tribute to my brother I could have had

[darkvamplips]

My mom had a miscarriage when I was 2 years old. Me and my mom both believed that it would have been a boy. I've grown up wishing I had a brother. This thread is going to be about him and whoever else had a miscarry. I hope some people find happiness in this. If this is in the wrong place please move it if you like.

[darkvamplips]

Walk with you mummy
I walk with you my mummy dear,
I'm always with you, always near.
Just look behind as steps you take,
And see my footprints that I make.
They're in your heart when you're asleep,
You feel me kicking when you weep?
I walk with you when you are sad,
But I am happiest when you're glad.
I'm never far away from you,
I'm here in everything you do.
I walk with you if you're in pain,
I steady and help you up again.
And when on earth God calls you high,
I'll light t he way mommy, to His sky.
God says I'm a gift mom, purer than gold,
He sent me to love you until you grow old.
You're blessed with an angel from Him above,
You gave me life, and we give you love.
I walk with you for eternity,
I am your angel, mommy look at me!

[darkvamplips]

The gates of Heaven opened wide the day my baby left,
Her golden wings flew to the light and left me so bereft.
I'd snuggled and protected her so carefully in my womb,
Why couldn't she have stayed with me,
Why did she leave so soon?
She was the sweetest gift on earth that I had ever known,
But why my baby Lord, why mine, when others could have flown?
I thought I heard an Angel as she flurried by my side,
I guessed it was a guardian that took my girl with pride.
The Angel leaned beside my head and whispered in my ear,
"Your baby was a chosen one, a cherub you did bear,
Of all the sweetest mothers here on earth our Lord could find,
He chose you dear, as you're the one to keep Him on your mind.
And while we promise faithfully that this child's by His side,
We promise you'll meet again.

[darkvamplips]

Heaven's gates are opened wide
When God calls children to dwell with him above.
We mortals sometimes question the wisdom of his love.
For no heartache compares with the death of a small child.
Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild, perhaps God tires of calling all the aged to his fold.
And so he picks a rosebud, before it can grow old.
God knows how much we need them, and he takes but few.
To make the land of heaven more beautiful to view.
Believing this is difficult, still somehow we must try.
The saddest word mankind knows will always be "goodbye".
So when a little child departs, we who are left behind.
Must realize God loves children, angels are hard to find.

[darkvamplips]

There is a place high up above
Where Angels dwell, so full of love;
Soft music plays and rainbows fair
Swirl around the mansion God prepared.
There is much laughter, joyous glee
In this great place we all shall be
And in the glorious days to come,
The Angels greet their loved ones home,
They wrap their wings around so tight,
And guide them up into the light.
This paradise waits for all who pray,
For those that believe in God, come what may,
For death is no more in His Heaven above,
Just happiness dwelling in sweet Angel's love.

[darkvamplips]

Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama please don't cry ~
Because I am in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies
Please, try not to question god,
Don't think he is unkind
Don't think He sent me to you,
and then He changed his mind.
You see, I am a special child,
and I'm needed up above
I'm the special gift you gave Him,
the product of your love.
I'll always be there with you
and watch the sky at night,
Find the brightest star that's gleaming.
That's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost,
that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers,
I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a little breeze,
from a gentle wind that blows
That's me, I'll be there,
planting a kiss on your nose.
When you see a child playing,
and your heart feels a little tug,
That's me, I'll be there,
giving your heart a hug.
So Daddy, please don't look so sad,
Mama don't you cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus
and He sings me lullabies.

[darkvamplips]

A precious angel slipped away,
no one heard a cry.
No time for Daddy and Mommy
to sing me lullabies.
My time with you was much too short,
I had to leave so soon.
But love had joined us as I grew
inside my mommy's womb.
It wove its way within our hearts,
until the very purest love
became my tiny wings.
Although I could not stay with you,
I knew right from the start
that once you felt your angel's love,
You'd keep me in your heart.
I'm just a little angel
but my time was not in vain,
as dark clouds that surrounded you
gave way unto the sun.
My precious parents you will see
that any heart will sing.

[darkvamplips]

Remember me with smiles not tears,
for all the joy through all the years.
Recall the closeness that was ours,
A love as "sweet" as fragrant flowers.

Don't dwell on thoughts that cause you pain,
We'll see each other once again.
I am at peace...try to believe,
It was my time... I had to leave.

But "what a view" I have from here,
I see your face, I feel you near,
I follow you throughout the day,
You're not alone along the way.

And when God calls you...you will be,
Right by my side...right here with me.
Till then, I'll wait by Heaven's door,
We'll be united...evermore!

[darkvamplips]

My dear little brother, how alone you must of felt.
Alone in the world without any help.
Not knowing if anyone cared.
I know it's not fair without family and the memories we shared.
There was nothing that we could do to bring you back.
I just want you to know we love you no matter where you are.
So if this is the first time in your life that you feel loved.
It's coming from our hearts, from up above.
There have been so many years you have been by yourself.
Without family around and no one to help.
Even if it was to just say "hi" or goodbye.
We have all been invisible and we don't know why.
I think about you and I get so sad.
I'm sure you do to when you are mad.
So please let me open my arms up once again.
To let you know that I'm always there when you need a friend.
Life is to short for you not to know.
How I feel inside
I just can't let it go.
So until we see each other again.
May God bless you, little brother

[darkvamplips]

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

I love the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening to me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying but too fast

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face,
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me


I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart wont let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you

[Phoenix]

Very beautiful.

[darkvamplips]

Thank you Phoenix. More is coming.

[darkvamplips]

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash then I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you

It was real, it was right
But it burned to have to survive
All that's left is
All these ashes

Where does the love go? I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After what little time we spent together

I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become
Like everything I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

In a dream you appeared
For a while you were here
So I keep sleeping
Just to keep you with me

I'll draw a map, connect the dots
With the little memories that I've got
What I'm missing
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go? I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After what little time we spent together?

I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become
Like everything I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

Just know of all the time that we both had
And I don't ever wanna see you sad, be happy

[darkvamplips]

Today is the due date
For you to be born
But all I have is
An emptiness to mourn.

Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby hold
My heart feels heavy
The weather is cold.

This should have been the time
For the anticipation of your arrival
But no one seems to be remembering
To share in my grief or sorrow

You were a life
Created from love
You were a gift
That was sent from above

Why couldn't you join us
To become a family of four
You'd have had parents who loved you
And a sister whom you'd adore

But mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold
My heart feels heavy
The weather is cold.

Your nursery is still in the computer room
Your bassinet is down in a box
Your blankies remain folded
With your tiny clothes and your cute little socks

There isn't a day that goes by
When I haven't thought of you
Calculating how far along my pregnancy would be
Or how big my tummy would be getting, too.

But mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold
My heart feels heavy
The weather is cold

I know that you have gone
To a much better place
Knowing that the grace of God
Is shining on your face

I see another baby
I think of you then, too
Wondering what you'd have looked like
As you giggle, cry, and coo

But I will never know these things
Because you will never be here
But in my heart you'll always be
My baby, my angel, my dear

It doesn't make it easier
For the pain I have is still here
I will never forget you, my little one
That fact remains quite clear

But mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold
My heart feels heavy
The weather is still cold