Taking a step forward, conquering my PTSD

Started by persephone325, May 03, 2013, 01:13:22 AM

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So, I went out dancing for the first time since my car accident. It's been almost a year, but I've only left the house maybe 10 times? Getting in a car makes me so nervous, anxious, and nauseated. Damn, PTSD... Damn it to hell.

Anyway, I went country line dancing at a casino. It was the first time I'd seen any of my friends in so long. The DJ made a huge fuss over me, and all my friends were so excited to see me. They noticed I had lost so much weight. But that's what a diet of soup and crackers will do. :-)

It just felt to good to get out of the house and see everyone. I missed them all so much, and I was worried they might have forgotten about me! Since things have been so crazy at home, it's better that I do get out and try to have the life I used to. I missed dancing so much. I messed up quite a few times, but thank goodness for muscle memory! Everything just came flooding back. Before I knew it, I was sweating quite a bit. It was so great to feel that happiness I had felt before. It had been gone from my life for so long, and I thought I would never get it back.

I seriously thought PTSD only really applied to people coming back from wars, or sexual assault victims and other really scary encounters that people survived. I never really thought that the after shock of a car accident would count. But, I've never claimed to know everything. Haha.

I see this as a giant step in the right direction for me. It may seem small to someone who doesn't understand. But for anyone who understand what I'm going though, I felt like I had just climbed a huge mountain and planted my flag at the summit.
This doesn't have to end in a fight, Buck.
It always ends in a fight.
You pulled me from the river. Why?
I don't know.
"Don't dwell on those who hold you down. Instead, cherish those who helped you up."

Koren

I hope you dont mind me commenting here at all Persephone, and if you do staff feel free to delete my post immediately.

I just wanted to give you a massive congratulations. Thats great to hear, even that one step can lead to such greater things and PTSD of any variety is incredibly hard to overcome from many many standpoints.

Unfortunetly it is the social perseption these days that PTSD is mainly about serious assult or war, but like anything else it can come from anywhere in many different ways and in many different forms and no version of it is less legitimate then any other.

Again, congratulations on that giant step and I hope many more follow it

persephone325

Quote from: Koren on May 03, 2013, 08:43:43 AM
I hope you dont mind me commenting here at all Persephone, and if you do staff feel free to delete my post immediately.

I just wanted to give you a massive congratulations. Thats great to hear, even that one step can lead to such greater things and PTSD of any variety is incredibly hard to overcome from many many standpoints.

Unfortunetly it is the social perseption these days that PTSD is mainly about serious assult or war, but like anything else it can come from anywhere in many different ways and in many different forms and no version of it is less legitimate then any other.

Again, congratulations on that giant step and I hope many more follow it

I don't mind posts in my thread at all. ;D

Thank you so much! It really does help me feel encouraged to keep getting out. Seeing all the familiar faces of my friends was such a great feeling. I'm still feeling happy about it, almost a day later! lol
This doesn't have to end in a fight, Buck.
It always ends in a fight.
You pulled me from the river. Why?
I don't know.
"Don't dwell on those who hold you down. Instead, cherish those who helped you up."