To give you some history on me, I wasn't always disabled, I didn't always have uncontrollable pain, I didn't always wake up in the middle of the night just to take more medicine to sleep. I didn't always have a hard time climbing my stairs and I didn't always have a hard time just walking a few feet. All of that changed for me on May 18, 2016. What happened to me you may ask that would change my life so drastically? I finished a set of shots in my back for 3 bulging discs and that very night, I felt so bad I was in bed by six pm. I woke up just two hours later with my hands completely asleep in the same position I have slept in all my life and never once had they ever fallen asleep. Since then, my legs have become so sensitive nothing can touch them but hot water. If cold water touches them, it sends my nerves ablaze, if the wind touches them, I hurt so much I want to cry and if the sun touches them, it burns like insanely more than normal. If my cat rubs up against them, I start to m...

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[floatright][img width=640 padding=5]https://elliquiy.com/pics/eclipsehorizon.png[/img][/floatright] This was 11:34 AM.

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Like every annular and significant partial eclipse, the world noticeably fades and cools beforehand. It gets eerily dark even though one cannot tell the Sun itself has dimmed. The only clue is in the shadows made by dense leaves - the sun's reflection off of water and metal does not appear to change.

Then, in seconds, the day collapses into twilight. The Sun winks out, revoking the last of its warmth. Birds make their final, confused chirps before going silent. The wind changes, and every horizon glows like sunset.

I do not know if there is a word to describe the alien emotion that accompanies this moment. A sense that reality has transformed.

Above the twilight is a sort of not-quite night, illuminated by the ring of white flames surrounding the hole in the sky. The Morning Star proudly shows herself just ...

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I have decided to write this for myself (and perhaps others if they might need a reminder or second opinion as to what it means). I also understand that people might think of political happenings/figures and other 'leadership' issues our countries might face. One may be tempted to make a snarky comment about such happenings here in my blog.

Don't. Do not shift or distract the intended focus of my work here. This is not a PROC thread. This is my work and largely spoken from my own mouth. If you cannot respect my work space, I will politely ask you to leave.

This is also unfinished, gradually forming over the past year and a half. I have ten basic principles in my head but not fully developed for consistency, yet. You are welcome to make suggestions. This is meant to translate my take on what it means to lead in somewhat to all forms of leadership (World Leaders to even those such as that run and maintain forums on the internet;  Leadership is ...

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If you are in the United States, today (the twelfth) you will likely be hearing about Network Neutrality from many places on the web.

I wrote about this before, but I would be remiss not to speak on it again.

If you are looking for the facts about Network Neutrality, please read that post. Again, it is important to understand even if you are not American.

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It has been fascinating watching this come together.

My hope is that people will understand and accept that this day is a sincere effort, by understanding individuals who wish to secure a better future for this country. There are companies participating today that have far more to lose than to gain from doing so, except perhaps being able to look their most talented employees in the eye.

A tiny non-profit picked a day most of us could agree on, and this fell together in a month....

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Hello dear readers,

Welcome to my blog, and thank you for reading. As the title states, this blog will be about my wish for a second child. About my journey to make this wish come true.

First of, I would like to tell you a little something about me. I am currently 29 years young, married to a wonderful man (who I met through here, great, right?), and mother of a wonderful 3 year old son. (Well, almost 3, but lets just say he's 3). I am so very grateful to have these two men in my life and I love them both to bits (even if they drive me nuts sometimes  ).

Our son is a true miracle, actually. Why? Well, because I have Turner's Syndrome and should be infertile. So the fact that he exists is truly a miracle.
What is Turner's Syndrome you're now probably wondering. Well, to explain things easy: it's a chromosomal defect. I have one chromosome less than normal people. Yes, the opposite of Down Syndrome. This defect causes my body to not produce enough...

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Hello!

Join me as I take on the insane project of liveblogging every currently released Doctor Who episode! This will also include the Big Finish expanded universe. I cannot liveblog a book, but I will be reviewing the Virgin New Adventures and Eighth Doctor Novels when I get to those.
Yes, I am insane.
Yes, I think it will be worth it.

Please note that there will be spoilers in this thread.

If I catch up, I will spoiler tag current release episodes for a week before removing the tags. Please do not shout at me. >_>

Comments are welcomed. :>

(Fancy graphics coming soon)

It’s the quiet moments that are truly dangerous.
When the white noise of life dies away,
That is when the doubts come calling.
Needling, nagging, burrowing.
They force themselves,
Ever deeper,
Into the places where I once found solace and peace.
A sudden gasp wakes me in the middle of the night,
Waking me from my sleep.
A vision of unimaginable loss,
The premonition of a nameless doom.
Even in the sweet moments,
The beautiful moments,
The doubts remain.
Always there.
Always needling,
Always nagging,
Always burrowing,
Ever deeper,
Into the places where I once found solace and peace,
Always.

I love the way you look at me.
Beautiful eyes,
Stripping my soul bare.
I hate the way you look at me,
Because I know that one day
You will no longer look at me.
On that day, I know, my soul will be torn to pieces.
It is inevitable,
Certain.
And yet tomorrow when I see you,
I will strip another part of my soul away,
Just to get you to look at me.
It is inevitable,
Certain.
I will do it so that in the years to come,
Long after you have gone from my life,
When all I can feel are broken pieces of soul,
I will remember the way you looked at me.
And I will smile.

The rock never changes.
It remains, unmoving,
Unyielding,
Entirely resolute in its existence.
On most days it stands in front of me.
Holding me back, keeping me
From all the good things.
But on some days,
I stand on top of it.
Those are the days when I can see everything.
Those are the days when everything changes.

Hello everyone! I'm not very good at introductions. Basically, I'm just here to share my recipes. I like doing a lot of crock pot and one pot dishes. Meal prep too. I don't have a lot of spare time, so meals that take a long time to cook don't work well for me. I realize that a lot of members of Elliquiy have that same issue. I thought it would be nice to share some of my recipes from time to time.

Anyway...just going to get on with it. Please feel free to comment!

Simple Roast with Cherry Tomatoes and Orange Oil

Ingredients
3-4 lbs roast (I use whatever my butcher recommends for that day)
1 pint cherry tomatoes
1/2 cup olive oil
2tbsp orange zest (or you can use orange olive oil if you have it)
1tbsp minced garlic
1tbsp fresh chopped parsley
salt and pepper to taste

Cooking
Marinate roast in olive oil and orange zest for at least 4 hours and make sure roast is room temp before co...

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"So I'm thinking about giving anime a try," I hear someone say. "What should I start with?" Suddenly there's an explosion of recommendations spilling forth from the mouths of fans. Most of them are simply the most popular right now. Some of them are simply what the enthusiast fell in love with as a kid or teenager. None of them seem to take the tastes and preferences of the person asking into account. The majority of them are filled with tropes and traits that can seem strange at best and outright offensive at worst.

This blog's mission is to take a ste...

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